do people know the term theoretical anymore?

so I have been slightly curious as to just what all it means to try and conceive a child, for research reasons only. Because at some point in my life possibly even with your someone I feel would want to have children with me. So I have been asking random small sized questions on a group that for people that have the interest in convincing children I have now had to make very clear to the people in that group this only research that I am not planning on going and fucking random people to get pregnant i just wish to know all the options I might have for if I want to indeed have a child sometime in the near or present future.

the reason I have had to explain myself is I guess these women have been parents for a lil too long cause they keep taking the parental view of we should make sure this girl really knows what she is getting into before she decides she wants to have a kid. And yes I know this people mean good and well but for christ sake I am not a teenager I am nearly 30 damned years old! I think the idea of someone my age thinking about possibly having children is a reasonable one if I was to ever actually want them. And all I have said is that i want to read a few books about the subject and possibly discuss the idea with a doctor. I know I sound more upset then anything, but I am not its just a mild irritation at best.

and its kind of just retarded that people think people my age must not have any common sense at all, and actually to be honest amusing. Its the same concept as teen going into a doctor and talking about using condoms, or finding out info stds she is not saying she wants them, or that she necessarily is screwing someone that very moment all its is a want of information and this one of the primary reasons people get into things way over their heads in the this country cause they don't encourage thinking ahead their main thought process is think of it when it happens, why would you need to be prepared.

so there is my little rant for the day sorry dear, I know I sound mad, I really am not just blown away with how silly and stupid people are even you tell them falt out what your intent really is. But then again thats why I watch things like Jerry Springer cause dumb people can be interestingly funny at times.

the pros and cons of new hobbies.

So I have found some enjoyment in a several new hobbies for mine most of which deal with fiber art realated materials. I found a lovely place online called Ravelry.com to go and find out more about such things and I got into doing swaps.

this proved to be fairly fun but only after a little while for the my main downfall in most of these groups is that I lead a fairly busy life and I would have a lot of troulbe meeting the deadlines for them.

I do realize that no is truly at fault for any of this other then myself alone but I do think I have come to a conclusion about something. a lot of these swap groups try to make the impression that they wish for you to meet other people, and make friendships out of this activity, but how valid a way nessicarily is this to make friends? its based purely upon if you do send out your package on time and if this person gets the item you send out to them at all.

Which yes is nice you are showing you have generosity you are showing that you can be kind even to some who truly is nothing more then a stranger to you.

However one should bare in mind that what if something goes wrong, what if you do everything you are supposed to and the package does not arrive to the person on the other end. I know I myself when just purchasing small items off a web store have had this issue come into play. Or the fact we have several street addresses that have the term Saint (shortened to St.) in their titles.

Then the tables become turned and the postal offices mistake now becomes your own and you are left with two options:

A.Do your damn dist to find out what went wrong and fix the issue and find the package with the postal office.

B. Start from scratch and do the whole thing over again

in conclusion I think the main issue of all of this is it is basing a binging of friendship, based purely upon Materialism. This is not to say we don't give friends or new friends gifts, but wouldn't be nice if we knew that person first. I think this basic reason alone is why I have found swaps to be un happy hobbies of choice most of the time for me. Because it is based around we like you only i you give us stuff. And the world seems to have quite enough "STUFF" as it is.

does this mean I shall forever withhold from doing swaps again....probably not but it will probably make be a lot more picky about ones I decide to partake in the near future.

new life challenges

so I have come to the conclusion that my life is emtional train wreck as of lately, and quit frankly its fairly annoying I mean I have meet a new guy in my life that I actually really like and we are both in agreeance that going into things to much too quickly is a bad idea, and he soo open minded which for some like me I really need in my life,

But the fact of the matter is I go through days that I am extremely happy and then I will just be incredibly depressed another. So I am deciding to suck up my pride and go and talk to a therapist, I feel like this is the wisest move to do, since I feel stuck and lost. I know that most of my stress is coming from my current poor job luck. Only being able to find work in Temp seaonal types of jobs and not really getting anything as far as a full time job. Which would certainly be helpful if I really want to go to school to study to be a vet tech anyway.

My relational status probably could do with some revamping as well but that aspect of my life has never been to nice, maybe its because I am trying to revamp my life as a single gal that its difficult for me its not really like I am used to such things. But hopefully this can be a goo start to something better in my life now.

new life challenges

so I have come to the conclusion that my life is emtional train wreck as of lately, and quit frankly its fairly annoying I mean I have meet a new guy in my life that I actually really like and we are both in agreeance that going into things to much too quickly is a bad idea, and he soo open minded which for some like me I really need in my life,

But the fact of the matter is I go through days that I am extremely happy and then I will just be incredibly depressed another. So I am deciding to suck up my pride and go and talk to a therapist, I feel like this is the wisest move to do, since I feel stuck and lost. I know that most of my stress is coming from my current poor job luck. Only being able to find work in Temp seaonal types of jobs and not really getting anything as far as a full time job. Which would certainly be helpful if I really want to go to school to study to be a vet tech anyway.

My relational status probably could do with some revamping as well but that aspect of my life has never been to nice, maybe its because I am trying to revamp my life as a single gal that its difficult for me its not really like I am used to such things. But hopefully this can be a goo start to something better in my life now.