changes minor but good

so lately I have been doing some very different thing in my life mostly to help me get my self out of a terrible depression I was in for a few weeks that just kept lingering on. Basically without getting into too much detail I was depressed cause I had found myself in the middle of a love tri-angle and I just literally had no idea how to handle the siutation and it was exredibly frustrating for me.

i think its just a comulious of that I am getting tired of meeting people and investing myself emtionally into that person being a potenial "something"for me that just ends up blowing up in my face in the end.

As much as I want to try dating again and having a sigficant other in my life again sometime I wonder if it really is worth the cost of dating and all the drama that comes with doing things like that. I know I will keep getting hurt until the day I did cause thats just the way life works out with things like that. But no where does it say that i have to enjoy that asspect of my life does it?

What I mean by minor changes in my life is that I have been going out and doing new hobbies, I have started to learn how to Crochet, and Knitting...i am also eventually going to get into weaving and spinning as well (spinning reffering to making your own yarn) I also want to learn how to do wood working, leather working, making candles, perfumes, and hand made soaps on my own. If anything these will prove to be really good hobbies for me as well as I guess if I wanted to I could try selling these items at smaller scale ren fests but that is something entirely new to me so it may or may not happen.

My focus on where I want to be career wise has kind of changed a little lately, I still want to look at doing English Teaching in Asia but i am un sure if I really want to invest in it for the rest of m life nessicarly, I am thinking of studying to become a vet tech which will involve me moving to KC to study to get certified in it. This really seems more postive then anything since i think getting out of this town would be a helpful thing for me. My mother and I area always at each other's throats arguing all the time and I think moving out of the house would help a bit, even though she claims she does not mind me staying in the house to assist me with things until I can do better. But personally I do have an issue with staying in her house for forever its not really a great goal for someone that want to be an indepdent adult. So as much as she might not like it I think moving out on my own to KC would be a postive thing for me.

My main focus is trying to prepare for that as well as just get money saved up for the rent I will have to pay for the apartment since getting finical aid should not be an issue at all but the school I am looking at does have on campus living so my main worry when I get there is that. i am thinking if I put back 8k in money that should be plenty for a back-up plan.

Actually my luck with the job market has been looking up, I had a seasonal job working for a small staffing company out of St.Louis working as an usher at the MU Home Football games, my last day working that job was this Saturday....but it looks like i am getting another job through the university doing Stage Crew (basically helping set up for atheletic events, and other things that go on around the university) it pays 7.50 an hour and it increases by 2 dollars when bigger events come through town. So at least I am helping myself out in putting back money, also my mom pointed that a local vet's office in town is looking for someone to help at their office to so manybe that might pan out for me.

I kind of already have some experience in that because I am volunteering at a local vet's office in town just trying to get experience as to how vet techs work.